Somehow Buddha baby N1 is just over 2.5 years old and our family has welcomed Buddha baby N2 approximately six months ago in the middle of a pandemic.
I’d like to sit here and tell you that over the past year and a half I have followed my passion and gone back to career number 1, but that would be a big fat lie. I did however switch positions in career number 2 and although it did not magically make me adore my job it did significantly diminish the amount of disrespect I deal with so that’s a positive. When debating making the switch in my career versus totally readjusting course, the political climate totally changed and jobs in both career fields got a little hairy. I decided it was best to keep the job security at least until after expanding our family.
So… I stuck it out which is convenient because about a week into my new position, I conceived Buddha baby N2. If I had jumped ship there’s no guarantee that I would have worked enough hours to qualify for maternity leave. I’m very grateful to have health coverage and a guaranteed job to go back to at the end of my leave. I know that employment security is very unstable at this point in time #thanksCOVID, so I am not taking it for granted.
Life has continued to ebb and flow and believe me the lows have outweighed the highs in a lot of respects. Asides from the fact that 2020 threw a pandemic my way, I also had a post VBAC haemorrhage requiring a couple blood transfusions for a total of 2L of blood just to buy me the time to get to the IR for an arterial embolization [it’s a really cool procedure if you’re interested in learning more]. That was a super wakeup call for me. I realized that if I keep putting off things that I want to do, I might not get the opportunity to do it. So I finally decided to look into Modo Yoga Teacher Training. The great news is thanks to the pandemic teacher training shifted online. This meant it was finally accessible to this mama of young babes.
So in October 2020 I hopped onto Zoom to meet my sangha and begin my next journey. I have to say that it was amazing and transformative and probably deserves it’s own post. What I will mention here is that I finally felt like I was coming home to myself and who I am at my core. If you’re a parent, you know that it’s so easy to lose your sense of self once you have kids. It’s not intentional. One morning you just wake up and go “where the fuck is Tiffany?” And you literally don’t know where your pre-baby self went or how to even tap back into that former version of yourself. Now, this isn’t entirely bad, growth is good. Being a mama is delightful. But y’know being a complete human on your own is pretty rad too.
I’m now 300 hour Hatha yoga certified. Woot woot! And am completing a slew of projects to get my remaining 200 hours for a combined 500 hour certification. I am beyond excited to finally get to share my practice with all of you lovely souls.
As 2020 comes to a close, and I work towards continuing to build upon my health in 2021, I welcome you to walk alongside me as I learn more about the healing properties of this beautiful practice.
So that’s where I’ve been. And my goal is to be a wee bit more consistent from now on… but clearly that isn’t a strong suit of mine so please give me grace (and occasionally a swift kick in the ass).
Oh and for anyone wondering, Buddha baby N2 is also a boy, and he is honestly zen goals. I am so grateful to have two healthy and happy Buddha babies.
With love,
Yoga Mama
Yoga Mama Buddha Baby 